October 2010
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Episode
Another episode. I’d been doing so well, and now this. I ripped open the wound on my first finger. It sore and stinging. There was already a scabby scar over it, and now it’s there’s a gaping whole. It’s so representative of how I’m feeling now. Raw, in pain, vulnerable, empty. I don’t know what happened. I had a good day, a pretty moderate dinner. Why did I...
When I look at the stars, I feel like myself.
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And if you REALLY must know the nitty gritty.
I was swept away by the money, power, glamour and super VIP status of partying. I think everyone at one point in their life wants to experience high society, and there I was right in the thick of it. It’s not that I come from the lower rungs of society. Definitely not. It’s just that a few 20 something year olds (namely, us) who haven’t accomplished anything at all except good...
I'm grounding myself, in every sense of the word.
So this is just a snippet of what I’ve been up to since I’ve been gone from Tumblr. I sent a message to my currently former best friend (she’s disowned me, what can I say?) as a way to make amends and hopefully soothe the heartache I caused her.
Dearest N,
This weekend is the first weekend I’ve spent at home or with my family. It’s quite a change from chaos of last...
Good morning, Life.
Good morning. This morning I woke up around 6AM. It’s the first morning I’ve spent home for the last three days. Otherwise I’ve been out and about with friends.
Now that I'm more sensible and logical
Why should weight determine how good we feel about ourselves or the world?
Why can’t women embrace their natural bodies?
Why is everyone under the impression that skinny equates to beauty?
What’s wrong with curves?
Why do people have a ridiculous preconceived notion about dieting? When a diet is really just the food we eat daily, and not at all the number of calories we can hack...
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“Yoga, an ancient but perfect science, deals with the evolution of humanity. This...”
– B.K.S. Iyengar, Astadala Yogamala (via swasthya)
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Episode
Another episode today. I feel so exhausted. My face is swollen, my heart is pounding and my hands are shaking - the usual symptoms of a post-binge purge session. I was so tired the whole day because I went out last night. I only had several hours of sleep. Maybe 3 or 4. I can’t go without an average of 7.5 hours. I took a nap around 3 and woke up at 4. I had this urge to eat and I stormed...
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“The body is your temple. Keep it pure and clean for the soul to reside in.”
– B.K.S. IYENGAR, INDIA (via yoginijules)
thehealthyhabit-deactivated2010 asked: Ohh! I wanna try bikram yoga! I'm going to visit the makati branch sometime since I'm quite near there too. :D your experience looks fun! I wanna try it! I've been looking for a new workout I could do since I think my body's too worn out with cardio machines. :D
How's everything going? :)
How's everything going? :)
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On Yoga
Two days ago I signed up for a one week unlimited yoga sessions at a yoga studio nearby. I’d done yoga in the past, but I wasn’t sure if the modified yoga at the gym counted. I’d never done bikram yoga, either. Imagine constantly being in movement for an hour and a half in a room nearly as hot as your internal body temperature. Who knew you could sweat that much? I go to the gym...
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thistimeplease:
Re-blog this with one thing you like about yourself.
I like the fact that I always fight, that I am survivor.
I like that I am able to acknowledge the fact that I have a problem, and that I am doing something about it.
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Currently Reading:
“Yoga From The Inside Out: Making Peace With Your Body Through Yoga” by Christina Sells
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“Don’t let it eat you up.”
– J, on overthinking
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I've been foiled.
But that doesn’t mean I’ll stop writing. The one person I didn’t want to see my blog, found it. No, it’s not my parents, but my sister. At this point I don’t care if she keeps reading. Read all she wants. Hell, she can even tell my parents. I’ve always wanted open communication, but was too much of a coward to see it through. I’d always wanted to tell them...
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Episode
This time it wasn’t “What’s eating you?” but what I was eating. Ever get those moments when you’re so frustrated over what you’re eating that you scramble around the kitchen searching for something to hit the spot, but since you’re still semi-stuck in that diet mentality you talk yourself into not eating even if you still want to eat, and then you end up...
“Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps...”
– -Ayn Rand, from Atlas Shrugged (via xnadiax)
“People tend to worry about what happened yesterday or what might happen today...”
– Me 